Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Neuroplasticity and the Brain

Human consciousness is nothing more than the result of a person's brain activity at any given moment. This includes both conscious activity, thoughts, as well as the subconscious activity which is unavailable for us to perceive in the moment, yet represents a majority of our reality.

How many conscious thoughts have you experienced since you woke up this morning? People tend to experience a non-stop flow of thoughts, kicking them out of bed in the morning and chasing them back again at night. The majority of these thoughts are irrational, repetitive, destructive (negative) and habitual. A person suffering from social anxiety is merely a person with brain activity characterized by a non-stop flow of negative and self-doubting thoughts about reality. When, as in the socially anxious person's case, these negative thoughts are left to snowball out of control and feed on itself unhindered, they become habitual thought patterns, baseline thinking or the normal state of being.

A concept within neuroscience called neuroplasticity has been brought to light in the past decades and is now considered a factual mechanic of the brain. Neuroplasticity means, in short terms, that when a part of the brain is activated repeatedly, it actually grows in size. This means that in the brain of a person repeatedly thinking negative or anxious thoughts, the parts of the brain representing these thoughts will grow, making them more likely to return in the future with even greater strength.

If you're an anxious person reading this, this will probably make you feel uneasy. All those anxious thoughts you're having throughout the day not only make your present moment feel bad, but the simple fact of you experiencing them, seemingly without being able to control the frequency or magnitude of impression they have on you, make you more likely to experience them again.

Do not be discouraged! There is a way to use this scientific fact of the brain in your favor.

All you have to do is: whenever an anxious thought or feeling comes up in your consciousness, use your thinking part of the brain - the prefrontal cortex, the part that makes you able to think freely and rationally about any given subject in this moment - use it to rationally tell yourself that these thoughts and emotions are not real, but merely habits of conscious activity. In moments of anxiety, envision yourself being strong, confident and secure, and the parts of the brain responsible for feelings and thoughts of this alternative, stronger you will light up and start to grow. It may seem hopeless and, dumb an naive in the beginning, but as you start making these positive thoughts a conscious habit whenever in doubt, you will actually slowly but surely grow into being that stronger version of yourself, on a neurological level.

Do this as often as you can, tell yourself you are a strong, confident being, filled with feelings of inner peace and love, and so you shall become with time. It's really this easy, science says so!


Back From Hiatus

After a long hiatus, I am back.

I have been really fighting for my life the past year and a half, with a new job in retail, studying on the side, pushing myself to get 'out there' and being social in order to make new friends in and outside of work, exercising, monitoring my irrational thoughts etc. It has been absolutely necessary for me to grow as much as possible as a person in order to once and for all put myself in a state of absolute certainty that falling back into depression and anxiety would never happen again.

I have reached that state, and I have learned a lot on the way here.

Due to the very mentally and physically taxing experience a completely new life outside of the comfort zone has brought, blogging has not been on the top of my priority list, it seemed like an unnecessary challenge on top of everything else I have been doing.

Consider the blog back in action. I firmly believe that now, more than ever before, I will be able to provide you great help in fighting anxiety and negative thoughts, ultimately showing you the path to (at the very least increased) inner peace.

Thanks for stopping by, I'll see you soon,


Thursday, May 8, 2014

Still Alive

So I went on NoFap for 2 months! I couldn't keep the blog up to date on it because an incredible amount of change occured in my life. I got a job, a drivers license, and a girlfriend. All in this short time span.

I contribute a lot of that to NoFap. It gives a man an incredible boost to keep his power (seminal fluid) within, instead of wasting it every other day on some fucked up, disgusting illusion that is porn. I felt a lot more confident, I had a lot more energy, and my life just seemed to flow naturally in a wonderful way.

Until i 'relapsed'. This was five days ago. I immediately felt drained, and all the positive effects from my abstinence quickly faded. I was basically back to being a nervous wreck. Now everything seems infinitely harder, work is a struggle, having a harder time keeping my girl happy, and the anxiety is through the roof in comparison.

So, what to do? Obviously; get back on the train. I'll keep doing this NoFap journey until I have achieved a greater control over myself and my impulses, as well as keeping my power within meanwhile. I have no intent to live a life of fapping.


Sunday, March 9, 2014

NoFap - Week #2 Report

Yesterday marked the end of my second week on NoFap.

So, what's new?

I've been having some really, really good days the past week. Days where I felt I could accomplish anything, with high energy levels, confidence like nothing I've ever felt before, and a sensation of inner peace and calm. So that's pretty good.

However, today (day #15) I have to say I don't feel the best. I actually feel a little bit depressed. I'm not surprised though, as the recovery process from something like sex- or "PMO"-addiction will never be linear in terms of positive effects. Some days my brain will just scream for that quick dopamine hit, and just cry when it doesn't get it. That's how beating any addiction works I've found out reading research.

Below is a graph I found on yourbrainonporn.com, and I can totally relate to what the guy who made this is trying to show. Reboot of dopamine receptors is not a linear process to betterness, it's quite the bumpy ride. You just have to hang in there, and even on those bad days, try to do something good for yourself. Don't let your feelings control you!

Talk to you soon, friends.


Monday, March 3, 2014

NoFap - Week #1 Report

Saturday marked the end of my first week on the NoFap challenge. I'm going "hard mode", which basically means, no porn, no masturbation, and no orgasms.

So far, this is what I've noticed in terms of mental changes.

  • A LOT more energy
  • More easily irritated
  • More drive to do things that otherwise might be procrastinated upon (school work, chores etc)
  • Increased sociability
  • Better sleep. Even if I only sleep 6 hours, I'll wake up refreshed.

So far so good. I don't have any difficulties resisting urges so far. I have yet not decided what do do about sex with my girlfriend though, as she comes home from her vacation abroad in a couple of days. The best thing would be not to have sex at all, but it might be more or less inevitable.

Reporting again on my NoFap journey on the coming Saturday, which marks week #2.


Thursday, February 27, 2014

Experiment: NoFap

What's up my friends. I can say with confidence that I have sucessfully beat Social Anxiety, at least to great extent. I realize that I may always feel the symptoms of social anxiety on occassion, but I know how to ultimately deal with them, and not let the now diminishing disorder control my life any more.

I am on the road to becoming my own man!

As sort of a continuation on that track of becoming more self confident, more sucessful, and really - more ME! I have decided to go on a 90 day NoFap streak. If you don't yet know what the NoFap movement is, I suggest you head over to http://www.yourbrainonporn.com and http://www.reddit.com/r/nofap , and get educated. So far I have gone 5 days.

I will report continually on the benefits and possible hardships of this experiment of body and mind, but I do believe this is a train that men in general should jump onto.

Regarding me beating social anxiety, I will make a longer post (or series of posts) in the near future summarizing everything I have gone through, as well as the steps I have taken to free myself from the shackles that is anxiety.


Sunday, December 15, 2013

Tears of Gratitude towards the Yogscast

As I watched this youtube video I could not keep myself from crying. I don't know when last time I cried was, I'm a soon to be 20yr old manly man for God's sake!

But man, the Yogscast has really helped me through some tough times, along with other great youtubers like Totalbiscuit and Jesse Cox.

As I saw this video, I came to realize that I may actually owe these silly, lovable goons my life.